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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Exhausted

I know that I have not posted in such a long time.  The last couple of months are kind of depressing for me, with my best friends birthday and the date of her passing so close together, and my grandmothers birthday would have been last month too.  I find it hard to find things that are not sad to blog about.

I started back to dance, which I have talked a lot about...and broke my toe and all that good stuff (the toe is much better now..almost back to normal color and size!)  I have also been teaching a class on Thursday nights.  I think it is time to give something up. 

My train of thought is this....

Monday nights I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.  Although I have fallen several times and injured myself once :)  I love Monday nights..I look forward to Mondays now because I have so much fun!  Two and a half hours of conditioning, going across the floor and dancing.  I get the best workouts and stress relief on Monday nights!  I love it

Tuesday nights:  I LOVE IT!!!!!  Tap has always been my strongest subject!  I just love to put my tap shoes on and go at it...an hour of tapping in just what my heart needs!  I love Tuesdays!

Thursday nights:....25 (yes I said TWENTY FIVE) little girls, ages range from 8 - 10  ability levels range from beginner to advanced (for the age), for 1 1/2 hours...not loving it.....NOT LOVING IT AT ALL!  It's so stressful.  We teach ballet, tap and jazz in 1 1/2 hours to these girls in that time I have to warm them up, stretch them out, teach them something, add to the dance and change their shoes 2 times.....it's a constant battle and I'm just not in it to win it.  I'm tired and a couple of weeks ago she said that she is adding two more kids! I just don't have it in me.  Is it wrong of me to bail on these kids like that?  It's 25 kids in one room.  we are standing on top of each other...we just don't have enough room!
So I gave a notice.  How much of a notice is enough????  Technically they asked me to start two days before class was scheduled, and they gave me a list of kids and their ages the day class began....I feel bad, but I'm tired.  I want to go home and rest.  I feel so guilty but I just didn't have the patience for it.  I spoke with one lady who said that her daughter doesn't like the new teacher :( that makes me sad, but at some point you have to do what is right...right?

Now we are getting ready for Christmas, but with the work schedule and shopping I just have not finished decorating!  So I'm putting the remainder of the decorations in the attic tonight and just going to be happy with my beautiful tree!

I have really missed blogging, and I've missed the girls I did at one time talk to a good bit! 

1 comment:

Rachel said...

Aww, I am so sorry!

I hope that you are able to catch a breather and enjoy the gift of Christmas!

For what it's worth, if you are exhausted and stressed - it'll carry over... so taking care of your busy schedule may be the best for everyone. Sometimes change is a positive thing!

Merriest Christmas to you and your family.