Changes

Well, Wes found a job.  I think that's a good thing since he's been unemployed for almost a year now (the end of July last year).  I know we needed him to find a job, the only thing is... it's an hour and a half away.  He will be living with his brother during the week and at home on the weekends.  We have done this before but it was short term, now this is long term, no less than a year. I will not pack up and leave my hometown, uproot my child for a new job, when he had not kept a job for more than 2 years since we met. 

He has always worked, but never in the same place.  What I mean is, when he was young he was a mechanic for a dealership, but right before his 21 birthday (maybe right after it) he got a DUI and could no longer work on cars because he couldn't test drive them.  Since then he's become a plumber, a very good one and he has his own plumbing license.  He has jumped from plumbing company to plumbing company since we met.  Partly because they have to go where the work is, partly because he decides he doesn't like this person or the way that person does things, and  partly because they close down.  The point is that in the last 11 years that I've know him he has not stayed with one company more than 1 maybe 2 years.  I can't uproot for a potential job, that he may quit or leave or be unhappy within 6 months.  Does that make me a bad wife?

I think that we can do this,  we have a strong relationship, we have always "made" it financially.  I'm tired of just "making" it.  I want to MAKE IT.  I dont' want to " be fine" I want to succeed.  I was enrolled in college, but now we can't afford the classes, and I NEED to finish my degree.

In his defence I've not been much better.  I did own my own dance studio for 5 years before that I worked for another dance studio for 3 years and for an accountant during that time for 3 years.  (I worked 2 jobs before Cam was born)  the dance studio wan only a few hours a week, but there I made MORE than my other job.  But since then, the last 6 years I've had 7 jobs.  One wrote bad checks, 2 were selling insurance and I did that for 3 years with 2 different companies and I sucked at both of them, a job with a title loan company that only last 2 months, and I've been with the place I work now for2 years.  I like it there, but there is no room for growth.  I want to find a place to work that I can become something else, have some benefits, get a raise sometimes. I was supposed to work here while I finished school, now it's been a year since Wes worked and I've not taken classes since Christmas. I guess I'm frustrated, my life is not where I pictured it would be at this age.  I feel like I have nothing to show for my years of work. 

Anyway I am praying that this job is a good job, a lasting job and one that he will quickly master.

Sorry for the rambling.

LOI

It's Friday - finally and I am hooking up with Julie at Four Sons for her Letters of Intent.  If you want to join in you can click the button up above.

Dear Readers,
I have had the busiest two weeks ever!  I am so sorry that I have not blogged (except on Thursday) and now I have lost one!  I'm back down to 38 and I so want to get to 50!  Oh well, that's life!

Kelly

Dear People on the Internet,

I am trying to pick my own spirits up, but after reading your comments on the crash in the newspaper I just get depressed all over again.  Can you not read about a fatal accident without saying mean things?  Without pointing out what someone may or may not have done wrong?  Can you not just say, wow she died, how awful for her family.  No you had to make remarks like: I bet she was on the cell phone, or I bet she was texting.

Well unfortunately I was there.  I would like to say that had she been on the phone when the crash happened someone would have called back right away. No one did.  Seems like her phone would have been ringing off the hook.  Also if she had been texting the phone would have still been unlocked when we picked it up.  Instead it was locked.  So leave your speculations to yourself. You were not there and no one is perfect.  People can talk about her speeding, but I don't think that there is a person out there that has not gone over the speed limit at least once in their life time, you just didn't have an accident.It's a tragedy when a young life is lost, especially if it was just an accident.  This girl wasn't in a gang, she wasn't out looking for trouble.  She was a young mother, a big sister that took her little sister to Carowinds and ball games

All I'm saying is if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all. 

Thank you